The sky’s not the same when you see it alone.

2008-05-07T17:00:00.001+08:00

typhoon?

2006-07-24T17:33:00.000+08:00

I don't have any classes today because of the typhoon i guess and honestly, i don't like them cancelling classes. It's just that i don't like the feeling of being here at our house and waiting for the night to come so that i could sleep already. I want to see my friends, I really want to be with them because graduation will be coming near and we don't have enough time to enjoy each other's company. After we graduate next year (January 2007 hopefully), we're not even sure if we can still meet up and do some old things or just completely hangout. All our schedule will surely be different from each other. Im just afraid that the time will come and everything's going to change, and that no matter what I do, things will never go back to where it was before.

a night of disappointment

2006-06-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

People as they say it that they would just be there if ever you need someone to talk to are sometimes fake. Some people would have just said it for some good reasons, reasons that would only make them look good, good in a sense that you'll think that they're your friends through thick and thin. The usual line " just call me if you need someone to talk to" are sometimes said but not really meaning it. No, im not saying that all of the people are like this. I just want to burst out some disappointment in here. Sometimes no matter how easy or hard your problem is, you just gotta solve or face it alone, for you to avoid the disappointment that you might get. I really don't know what the hell im saying right now. But that's just reality that we should face...

a little conversation

2006-06-11T21:15:00.000+08:00

I had a conversation with a friend last friday... I think it was one of the best conversations i have ever had. We just started talking about some silly things that we did back then, our lives during our gradeschool and highschool days, and how different we are right now. Until it became one serious conversation and i found myself having a tear ready to fall from my eyes. I tried to cover it, tried not to show it with my friend until she said that she's beginning to cry... We just found ourselves having tears in our eyes, ready to roll down on our cheeks. I think we didn't know that in our conversation, we are already trying to burst out our anger, pain, sadness, or whatever you call it. I suddenly became the person that i never used to be, expressing the sadness that i have been trying to hide in front of my friends. That person can make me show my real self. My friend just doesn't know it. But thank you my friend.. thank you..

Insensitive...

2006-05-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

Some people are sometimes insensitive to the feelings of others. they tend to not think of what others might feel on the things that they've said or done. they're just like that, its really not their fault and i understand them. we can't blame them for being like that. if they really care for their friend, they should know that they have hurt his/her feelings in the first place, they should have sensed it already or sometimes they just need to say something, something real for the hurt to go away.
i dont know if im just being immature again, but i'm quite disappointed to someone who is sometimes insensitive. leaving me behind all the time. i expected that person to be by my side or to stick with me. it happened not once but many times already. ofcourse i don't want to let this person know what im feeling because im really afraid of what this person would think. i guess im just not brave enough to show my emotions. i would just let the pain go away after a couple of hours or if not, in a couple of days. i tend to let it go and not let it stay with me so that it would be easy for me to smile again...

finally...

2006-05-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

Whew... I finally went out last night and today. I visited my friend's booth near our church. They're family is selling some cakes and pastries. *yummy* Donnie's friends are also hanging out and they're all nice. New people to talk to. I learned something from them also... Hehe.

I also enrolled today in school with Steph and then we also found Seka... Then ukay-ukay with steph and then we went to g4 and stroll around. Got nothing to do but to shop... But i just bought 2 pcs of shirt unlike steph who bought so many things (dami money eh). Then It was fun hanging out with Steph. I enjoyed it eventhough shopping is really not my thing.. Im not a shopping buddy material type of person. But I had fun...

Pagudpud trip

2006-05-10T12:31:00.000+08:00

I really got nothing to do right now. I miss our Pagudpud trip. Even though there's no night life in pagudpud, we made our stay worth while. The peaceful environment in the area could keep our minds steady and not think of the problems we have in the city. It took away all our anxiety and stress. 15 hours is the time needed to get there... It was really a long drive but it was okay, we enjoyed every minute of it. The people was very accommodating unlike the people here in Manila. It seems like you can easily trust the people there. How can I forget Julie's Ever After... the beach with no crowd... our favorite Polaris' sinigang… the mud going to kaibigan falls... Sigh... what fun it was... I wish I could go back in Pagudpud... But I will... Next time....

Day1:
4:15am - we left Manila
2:00pm - we ate lunch at Mcdo Vigan
6:00pm - we arrived at Polaris Beach House (Pagudpud)
6:30pm - swimming at the beach
-dinner time!
Day2:
- Maira-ira beach (Blue Lagoon)
Day3:
- Paraiso ni Anton
- Patapat bridge
- Agua Grande (where the river meets the sea)
- Kaibigan Falls
Day4:
- Maira-ira beach (Blue Lagoon
Day5:
4:30am - we left Pagudpud
around 10am - early lunch at vigan and tour vigan
around 4pm - stopover at NLEX for merienda
6pm - we got lost in Manila… haha.

*if you want to see more pics... visit http://par2x.multiply.com/photos

update

2006-05-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

im getting really bored this summer right after our pagudpud trip. i will be updating my blog from now on.. i hope! haha. i'll be updating my livejournal also, ill put there all the things that you'll be reading here.. so i guess thats it for now.

ayayayayay

2006-04-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

its been a couple of months since i last posted something in here.. i guess im just busy with my friends, school, and other stuff. its summer again, and as usual there's always a time when i get really as in soooper doooper bored here at home.. got nothing to do but to get online and watch tv or dvds.. simply bummin around.. i can't go out coz i need to save some money for our pagudpud trip this coming saturday.. it'll be our ultimate road trip. i just hope that it would be a blast and that nothing bad will happen to our trip.

mask...

2005-11-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

I really wanted to make other people happy lalo na ang close friends ko. I don't care if they would be making fun of me or what basta i just want them to be happy. Pero there are times na ako na din yung nahihirapan.. nasasaktan.. yes, gusto ko masaya sila but i can't control my emotions. There are times na aasarin nila ako and stuff like that, ok lang sa akin but minsan medyo nakakasakit na din. Pero the thing is that a part of me gusto lang itago kung ano ung nararamdaman ko. Maybe its just that ayoko lang ipakita na nasasaktan na ko or na weak ako sa mga asar nila kasi if sasabihin ko yun, anong mangyayari? im just afraid that they might take it against me. Baka isipin nila napipikon na ko or what... Then baka may magbago ng treatment and it may not be for the better. There's a time na alam nilang natatakot ako na may magalit sakin especially kung isa sa kanila then ayun.. niloloko pa din nila ako.. hindi lang siguro nila alam na deep inside hindi na talaga ako mapakali.. deep inside super wo-worry na ako.. Pero sige ok lang.. Basta masaya sila ok na ko. kaya dito ko na lang binubuhos lahat.. :) ill just continue wearing my mask...

attached?

2005-09-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

Wow.. im back.. Medyo matagal-tagal na din akong hindi naguupdate nito. Oh well.. what can i do? Super busy ako last term. Errr... busy sa iba't-ibang bagay and hindi kasama dun ang schoolworks. As of now naiinis nanaman ako sa sarili ko.. Na-aattached nanaman ako sa mga tao and kapag ganun ang nangyayari nagiging sensitive ako. I hate it! Im trying pull myself away from that "attachment". Haaaaay... hassle.. Ayoko na ng ganun.. Ako din naman ang nahihirapan in the end. :(

Summer `05

2005-05-24T17:50:00.000+08:00

haaaaaaaaaaaay... summer's over and it's still hot. haha! grabe! ang init!!! waaaaaaaaaah.. oh well... i was not that busy during summer. i don't have that much plans and it really did made my summer BORING. :( as in most of the time nasa house lang ako.
Summer2005:

**I went to Nasugbu with my highschool friends. Actually dapat cavte lng but then we didn't like the place that Maan told us so we decided to go to the beach and the nearest choice we had was Nasugbu. So ayun, we went there and too bad coz nung pauwi na kami, we got stranded sa tagaytay. Nagkaproblem yung car ni saldy! waaaaaaaaah!!!!we decided to commute na lang and nagstay sa tagaytay yung iba..

**May14-16 nagpunta naman kami nila Karen, Daniel and April sa Tayabas, Quezon (chinni and aleca's place). We arrived at around 9:30 pm and aleca picked us up. Then ayun, punta na sa house nila chinni and after namin magshower biglang nagkayayaan na pumunta sa Lucban to see the pahiyas. mga 12:00am na kami nakaalis then sa Lucban naman picture lng ng picture. hehehe. then balik na ulit sa house nila chinni at around 2am tapos ayun. natulog na yung iba. then nung 4am gising pa kami ni April then biglang may tumunog na music box (waaaaaaaaaah! kakakilabot!) 4 kami sa room that time and yung dalawa tulog na! kaya ayun.... Mga 1hr lang ako natulog then gcng kagad ng 6am. Tapos naglaro ng LUCKY NINE! hahaha! kaso talo ako ng 120php! :(( Then lunch at aleca's place tpos punta ng sm lucena. hehe. tpos dinner ulit kina aleca. After dinner... INUMAN NA! hahaha! 2 bottles of Gran matador and 1 bottle of Vodka. tapos grabe may tama ako kaagad. as in! 10pm kami nagstart and natapos ng 12mn coz hindi na kaya.. and because of that hindi na nabuksan yung vodka. Suka ako ng suka that night and alam kong nakakahiya. waaaaaah.. tpos pagkagising ko suka ako again hehe. then paginom ko ng water nung umaga suka again. then on our way back to manila suka nanaman ako sa bus.. haaaaaaaay... puro suka na lang ako that day...

Changes

2005-03-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

Some things are meant to change.. We might never know what the reason is but for sure we'll learn something from it.
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**My mom and I had a fight last last night..
**She said something..
**I don't know if she's right or what..
**Or am I just afraid to realize that..............................

-So now, me and my mom are okay.. but the thing that she told me still bothers me.. What if she's right?

Thankful

2005-03-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

Haaaayyyy... Grabe.. After our orient2 yesterday umuwi na ko ng house and nag-online na lang sa ym buong gabi.. But ok naman since may nagawa naman ako kahit papaano for a friend (long lost sister! HaHaHa!). asteeg! I slept at around 2:30am. Nakinig na lang ako sa mga mp3s ko at nagsenti! haha! kiddin! Someone txted me but i wasn't able to read the msg because im already sleeping na. then i txted that person "why?". that person just wanted to thank me. But for me, i wasn't able to help that person.. wala lang. siguro hindi ko lang napapansin yun..

May nangyari dati sakin na naging reason kung bakit nawala yung trust ko sa sarili ko.. Na inisip ko na wala akong kwenta or what. But now.. someone made me realize my worth as a friend and Im very thankful to that person... You know who you are.. (I hope. hehe)

Last day of GE

2005-03-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

well.. today is the last day of GE! The last day to vote! haha! I wasn't able to attend my classes for the day. I don't have a poligov class because we should go to the talk for 40mins. and there's a freecut in fildias. hahaha! what a day! Im happy with my life right now and I have no idea on when this happiness will end. I guess I wasn't really expecting that person to touched my life but that person really did touched my life. I wish I will always be like this..

g4 adventure

2005-03-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

Hahaha! grabe today! super fun! dba caro??!? :P hehe. ayun.. nagkaroon kami ni caro ng G4 adventure! haha! LRT-MRT papuntang g4! grabe! mas gusto kasi Caro na magride sa LRT-MRT tapos ako naman mas gusto ko mag take na lang ng Cab.. Pero ayun.. Lrt-mrt pa din! then.. pagdating sa g4 huuuuuunnnnnnnggggggrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyy na kami! so we ate lunch sa food choices! yum yum! haha! nabusog ako! sarap pa ng coke light (ndi ako umiinom ng softdrinks! ayaw kasi maniwala! hehe. jk!). after mag-eat watch naman ng HITCH! hehe! ganda! Nice story and super funny! As in! 2:30 natapos yung movie tapos sabi ni Caro na kailangan na namin makabalik sa DLSU dahil andun na sundo niya! waaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! sobrang nagmamadali kami so medyo tumatakbo na kami papuntang MRT and LRT! hahaha! pagdating naman sa LRT pagod na pagod na kami so.. SAY CHEESE!! haha! Picture muna! hahaha! fun shots nanaman! tpos ayun! nakabalik na kami ng school. well.. i really enjoyed our so-called adventure.. sana maulit ulit! haha! well tnx Caro! :P

some of the pics:

Bday treat #1

2005-02-25T01:38:00.000+08:00

whew! just got home from ATC (Alabang Town Center) with Bi, Nic, Christian, Panch and Eric! Laughtrip! We ate at CPK (california pizza kitchen) and then walk around and went to starbucks. At starbucks we were just laughing the whole time with the mosquitos around us! I won't forget this night! hahaha! first night out with them! We planned to go to tagaytay but because of the traffic and how far tagaytay is, we just went to atc! then a skyway patrol guy asked us to move over to the side of the road because we were at the epass lane! but there's really no sign! we paid him a hundred bucks so that he can give christian's license back! well it's ok, hassle free! :D

**basta THANK YOU BI,NIC,CHRISTIAN,PANCH, AND ERIC!!! **

Black and white sunset

2005-02-03T01:30:00.000+08:00

What's with the pic? We can see a sunset in black and white. What's the significance of the sunset? I read in the book "The Little Prince" that "one only loves the sunset when one is sad". I think it's true. I mean, for me coz when a person is sad, we sometimes didn't care or didn't want to think that life is so beautiful. We usually think that life sucks big time! That life is unfair. When I was watching a sunset, I felt something, a very unexplainable feeling. We all know that sunset was one of the most beautiful creations of GOD. But even if it's so beautiful, notice the colors of the sunset... It's a little bit of orange with a shade of yellow. For me the color of it symbolizes sadness. SUNSET = beautiful + sadness. Even though we are sad, sunset wants to us to see that life is still beautiful and worth living for. It gives us HOPE with the problems and challenges that we are encountering.

Black and white... My life right now is in black and white...

Movieeee

2005-01-30T09:58:00.000+08:00

Waaaah!!! I never thought that korean movies were whoa! haha! I just bought My Sassy Girl, Windstruck, and Il Mare. Lahat yan si Ji Hyun Jeon ang actress! I found the reviews in these films and they said that it has a nice story and others were crying while watching these movies. Well, me too! I found myself crying when the guy in my sassy girl told the other guy to remember 10 things about Sassy girl. Basta! "wanna die?" haha! famous line! And sa windstruck naman.. They said its a prequel to my sassy girl but i think it's not. the director just want to play with the minds of his audience and he just wants to show some ideas on sassy girl's ex-boyfriend who died. He didn't make it that obvious though. I'll watch Il mare this week! I can't find an Il mare dvd buti na lng my friend told me that in ongpin there's an Il mare dvd for 320 php. I told her to buy one for me! haha! Adeeeeeeeeeeek!!!!

What a day!

2005-01-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

For the first time hindi ako late sa poligov! haha! I woke up at around 5:00am then after 1 hr and 30 mins, i got off the bed na.. weird noh? buti na lang talaga hindi ako late. After my poligov class, we (anton, louis, and panch) went to saje's na to eat breakfast tapos i told myself that im not going to attend the seminar na in UP but ewan ko ba hindi ko kaya na hindi pumunta sa seminar. haha. LABO! 2:20 pm we (mariko, patrick) went to UP na! haha! we took the LRT, LRT2 (ganda ng LRT2! waaaaaah!!!) then nagjeep na kami! Grabe! Nilakad namin yung sa entrance ng UP sa may bandang Katipunan up to social work center yung malapit sa bahay ng alumni! shit! sakit ng paa ko! haha. steph and eli are already in the said seminar but wala naman yung prof namin and iba naming classmates. badtrip! nasayang pagpunta namin sa UP! t*ngi*a! we wasted our time lang pala! So 15 mins lang kami sa seminar then umuwi na kami! lakad ulit kami then taxi na! haaaay! nakakaasar sobra!

hmmm.. Papunta naman kami nila saldy and gaea kina maw para sunduin si joan then something came into my mind! haha! Same subdivision lang pala si maw and si ****! Sabi ko kay saldy na dun kami dumaan sa bahay nila **** i juzt want to know if they're still staying in their grandma's house or hindi na.. Kaso medyo hindi ko nakita! Ang bilis kasi ng car eh! hehe! Wala lang! Nacurious lang ako! It doesn't mean anything! hahaha!

The Return of Par

2005-01-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

Im back! hahaha! Medyo tagal din ako hindi nag-update ng blog ko.. Oh well.. Medyo busy kasi eh. So far so good naman this term but daming requirements na dapat tapusin. Daming interviews ang dapat gawin. This year, napansin ko na parang may nagbago sa akin. I don't know why pero bigla na lang ako naging serious sa aking studies, i mean hindi ko na kayang gawin yung pagpapabaya ko dati. (It's for the better naman eh. So ok lang! hehe.)

Finally! may planner na din ako ng starbucks! Thanks to Anton, Louis, Gi, and Panch! hehehe!

Hmm.. ano pa ba? Got a new 6210 for 2400php para sa sun. hehehe. Sobrang ok talaga ang sun but pag nasa may dlsu area naman ang hirap tumawag. haaay..

Ano ba ginawa ko kanina? errr.. gumising ako ng 12:00nn then pumasok ako ng school ng 1:50pm. Then tambay lang sandali sa booth ng ced at kinulit si Louis.. Then pumasok na ko sa engltwo class ko and filmcri.. Tapos Starbucks with chinni.. Then uwi na.. See! hindi na ko naglalakwatsa! haha! ang bait ko na! hehe.

Pics last Dec.23

2004-12-29T20:18:00.000+08:00

Got these pics from Giselle! Tnx! :D

Pics with Giselle, Jielene, Bane, Anton, Marvin and Mac last Dec.23.

Meri Xmas

2004-12-25T10:21:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

A Night To Remember

2004-12-24T11:04:00.000+08:00

whew! I just woke up. haha! sobrang kapagod kasi last night eh! last night we (Me, Giselle, Bane, Jielene, Anton, Marvin and Mac) had dinner sa Old Spaghetti House @ Makati. Treat ni Anton! hehe. Parang Xmas celebration na namin yun. Daming napagusapan. Basta! Ang saya! After ng dinner, mga around 9:30pm pumunta kmi ng manila peninsula for some icecream (Wehehehe! treat naman ni Mac) . Sobrang kulit namin because mukha kaming picture! Hanggang CR ba naman eh! haha! Nauna ng umuwi si Giselle and Bane. Then umalis na kami ng mga 10:30pm. After that hinatid namin si Jiel sa Pque. Then after namin siya ihatid nawawala na kami ni Anton! Buti na lng may map siyang dala.. At around 12:30am there was this car and bus na nagkabungguan. KAMI YUN! Nasa wrong lane kami tpos yung bus nasa wrong lane din. The bus was trying to beat the red light then kami naman biglang nagbreak. Then ayun! Natamaan kami ng bus. If hindi kami nakapag break, sa door ko na siguro tumama yung bus. Buti na lang. Natanggal yung bumper ni Anton. Sobrang hassle sa kanya dahil gastos nanaman. After that hinatid na niya ko sa house. Super traffic! Nakakaasar! Nakauwi ako ng 2:00am. Buti na lang hindi naman ako pinagalitan. Hehehe.. Nakalusot nanaman ako! Well, it was really a night to remember because super saya namin and may pumantay na kamalasan! hehe. But nagenjoy naman ako dahil the best ang company nilang lahat!

Thanks

2004-12-21T13:58:00.000+08:00

Got these from a forum. I forgot kung saan.. So.. ayun.. Ok na ang lahat. I mean, tanggap ko na and all.. I have already moved on. Thanks for everything and for the memories that we have shared. Thanks for being my Bestfriend for 7 years. I've learned a lot from you. Thanks again.. (sana mabasa mo ito) :)

"untitled"

Your heart once beat for me as mine does for you,
Our friendship had once been so pure and so true,
I'm not sure what happened to us anymore,
But it doesn't feel like it used to before

It feels like you just don't care about me,
I look at you and it's so hard to see,
There used to be love, flowing from you,
But now it seems as if I'm not getting through.

I love you still; you were the best friend,
But it seems I lost you around the bend,
I wonder at night if you still care at all,
Or if you are purposely letting me fall.

What happened to "Best friends forever",
If through these times, we couldn't endeavor?
I want you to hold my hand once again,
And help me get rid of all my pain.

I still love you, because were so great,
But now it seems as if me, you hate,
So please tell me that I am wrong,
Tell me that this feeling won't last long...

Friend, won't you tell me you're still near,
And that your love will forever be here?
Because I need you so much in my life,
To help abide the pain and all the strife.

So does your heart still beat like mine?
Or had it been fake love all this time?
Won't you hold my hand again, my friend?
And then maybe we'll continue on till the end.

"changes"

“Friends forever” you promised
“Together till the end”
We did everything with each other.
You were my best friend.

When I was sad, you were by my side.
When I was scared, you felt my fear.
You were my best support-
If I needed you, you were there.

You were the greatest friend,
You always knew what to say
You made everything seem better
As long as we had each other,
Everything would be okay.

But somewhere along the line,
We slowly came apart.
I was here, you were there,
It tore a hole in my heart.

Things were changing.
Our cheerful music reversed its tune,
It was like having a salt without pepper
A sun without its moon.

Suddenly we were miles apart,
Two different people, with nothing the same.
It was as if we hadn’t been friends;
Although deep in our heart Neither one of us was to blame.

You had made many new friends
And luckily, so had i
But that didn’t change the hurt-
The loss of our friendship made me cry.

As we grow older, things must change.
But they don’t always have to end.
Even though it is different now,
You will always be my friend.

ccard dist. day

2004-12-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

Course card distribution day ngayon! haha! Thank God at wala akong bagsak! woohoo! Ang saya sobra! Sobrang worth it ang pagpupuyat ko at pagaaral ko tuwing madaling araw! hehe. Kala ko babagsak na ko sa Intreco and crithin eh! whew! Shempre ayaw ko bumagsak sa crithin dahil may promise ako sa 2 friends ko na perfect ung last test ko sa crithin and ipapasa ko un! Sila inspiration ko sa crithin! hahaha! asteeg tlga! tnx gladz and les!

Crithin 2.0
Anthrop 2.0
Intreco 2.0
Filipi3 3.0
Jprizal 2.5
Relstri 3.0

Kailangan ko gumising mamaya ng 3:30 am! Simbang gabi! Sana magising ako!!! waaaaaaaaaah!!!

So now xmas vacation na talaga.. sana naman magenjoy ako kahit papaano! hehe. Sa new year naman sa Batangas ata kami magcecelebrate. Family reunion. haha! oh well.

By the way, thanks ciong sa gift mo! sarap sarap! yum! :D

sumthin new

2004-12-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

got a new layout! the layout is a little bit sad... it's like one time in my life that there's this very important person and that person leaves me... and there are so many questions left unanswered. Now... Im lost in my confusion...

**btw, tnx to kane for teaching me how to change layouts and stuff! :D**

so.. course card distribution day 2m.. i wish wala akong bagsak so that ma-enjoy ko ang aking xmas! LoL.

I had a great tym last night! We (Bane,Anton,Bin,Mac) played nfsu2 at anton's place. Pati pala smackdown and nba live 2005! 5 players! ang gulo! haha! Then sarap sarap ng lasagna na ginawa ni macmac! The BEST! whew! Then after kina Anton we had our coffee sessions at starbucks taft w/ chinni! hehe. Basta.. Ndi ako pinagalitan! :D You guys rock!!!

Miss ko na ung nagbigay ng cap na toh sakin! :(